I have a friend named B.

She goes to church, she prays, and she reads a good deal of self-help and spiritual books and magazines.

At first glance, you'd really think that she's too good.

But wait until you talk to her friends.

One said she cried buckets because of her conflict with B because B said so many nasty words to her.

Another said he hardly understand her ways, one minute she's ok, another minute it's as if World War 3 is about to happen.

I was not surprised. Why?

Because I have my own shares of conflict with B too.

Conflict Addiction

con·flict (knflkt)n.

1. A state of open, often prolonged fighting.
2. A state of disharmony between incompatible or antithetical persons, ideas, or interests; a clash.

ad·dic·tion (-dkshn)n.

a. The condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or or involved in something.

So join them together to understand what I mean.

I Was Once A Conflict Addict

In the past, I would shout at my children for doing things that for me were unpleasant.

I would find even the smallest issues that can trigger a week-long fight between me and my husband.

I would squeeze the remaining creativity that my subordinates have just to meet their deadlines.

I would react in a very provocative way when my friends seemed to have a bad day and ignore me.

I would angrily text back as fast as a person typing 100 words/minute whenever my dad texts me asking again for money.

And the maids were not spared too.

How I Changed from a Conflict Addict to Peace Addict?

It was not an easy transformation.

But I must admit that I'm not yet totally changed.

I'm still a God's work in progress.

So how I managed to avoid conflicts?

By finding God.

On Attending The Feast

It's the happiest place on earth.

People sing, worship, and serve God with all their hearts.

It's a place where you can just be you.

And just like everyone else, you begin to trust the Lord more, and believe, and have hope.

When I'm there, I feel so at peace with the Lord.

Thus, my inner peace radiates, until there's no more room for conflicts.

But God Puts Me to the Test

God seems to tell me, "My child, without conflict, you will not learn more of life's lessons. So I'm putting you to these tests."

It's difficult to be in conflict with someone, especially with people close to your life.

But everything happens according to God's plans.

And so, how you cope with this conflict is all up to you.

How do I cope with mine?

I pray.

I pray.

And I pray.

But only after I released my anger to the person I'm in conflict with.

I realized that it's not wrong to get angry.

In fact, it's the Stage One of the healing process. Here read this article: The Only Thing That Can Heal Your Emotional Wounds.

Again, I'm God's Work in Progress

A lot of people have this wrong notion that just because I'm already attending The Feast, praying, and reading the Bible, I'd no longer create conflicts nor be in one.

I believe that God is working on me.

And the conflicts I'm facing right now, they're nothing compared to the bigger and greater plans that God has in stored for me.

My Prayer

Heavenly Father, thank you for continuously working in my life.

I may be experiencing conflicts right now,

But I know you will never abandon me,

And that you are preparing something great for me.

I also pray Father for those I am in conflict with

Cleanse their hearts oh Lord so that they may see You in their hearts.

Allow forgiveness to heal us all.

In Jesus Mighty Name, Amen.


Psalm 37:7-9

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.

I asked because I don't know the real answer either.

I've been attending The Feast for 2 months now and been reading Bo Sanchez' website for quite sometime, yet I still feel something lacking deep inside me.

Yes, I'm praying regularly now, and I read the Bible, finally.

But there's a voice at the back of my head that's telling me to use my anointing to spread His word more. Do you think it's God's voice? Perhaps.

Natural Born Writer

I can't exactly remember when I first started writing.

But I can vividly remember the time when my favorite English professor in sixth grade, let's call him Mr. P, chose me to be the school's contender for an essay writing contest.

I love writing, I knew that from the start. But I never expected that someone will notice that I am good at it.

So who won the contest? Me? No. Sadly.

Because I did not compete in the first place.

Before Mr. P chose me to compete for the essay writing, my class adviser, Mrs. C, already chose me to compete for a beauty pageant.

True, I was chosen to join one.

I am not that pretty, I know but my mom told me so.

And perhaps, Mrs. C saw that too. Ehem. Ehem. I know, a couple of people who'd read this would have a violent reaction. (Anyway, want to know who I looked like? Well, a few people said I looked like LJ Moreno. Familiar? If not, okay let's move on. Haha. I know she's not that popular. But really, a few people told me that I looked like her - actually there were only 2 :D )

I did join the pageant, but totally gave up the essay writing contest.

I know, wrong move.

Because I moved away from my anointing.

The end result: I only landed 3rd runner up while my classmate, J, who was sent to compete for the essay writing instead, won the 1st prize and enjoyed the perks of being a winner - she was sent to another province to compete for the regional level.

That was one important lesson that I learned, but did not practice after.

Only last 2004, I decided to use my skill as a writer to uplift myself and finish college.

There were times that I wanted to give up writing for good, but I had that burning desire in my heart to finish my course and prove to everyone that I can achieve something.

And indeed, I graduated.

You might ask, "Are you still working as a writer?" Yes, I still do.

Writing for God

Before I continue, let me share to you what happened two hours ago.

When I was about to begin this part, the power suddenly died.

For the 4 long months that I've been staying here in my place alone, this was the very first time that a power interruption occurred.

Call it coincidence, or call it simply as power interruption.

But for me, while waiting for the 2 long dreadful hours without power, I thought there's another one working aside from God.

Yes, I guess you read my mind right.

Because how come at the same time when I was about to write on the topic "Writing for God" the power died.

But I wouldn't analyze further.

I'll just continue until I finish this blog, even if it takes me up to wee hours of the morning.

Writing for God, Finally

Writing is my anointing and so I'm going to use it to write for God.

I know, I'm not yet good at Bible verses. But I'll try, I promise, to share as much as I know.

To give hope.

To love more.

To share the blessing.

To help heal the wounded.

And to serve God.

My Prayer

Lord, thank you for my anointing.

I know you're working on me right now.

With this blog, I hope to strengthen my relationship with you.

Give me the wisdom to share to others all the life's lessons that I learn each day.

Direct people to this blog so they will be enlightened.

And use me oh Lord to share your words and your goodness through this avenue.

Be with me in fulfilling my life's purpose. In Jesus name, Amen.


1 John 2:20, 27
“But you have been anointed by the Holy One, and you all have knowledge.

But the anointing that you received from him abides in you, and you have no need that anyone should teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about everything, and is true, and is no lie—just as it has taught you, abide in him.” (ESV)